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Preface
I didn’t plan to write this book. It
evolved. As a performing musician, I learned that sharing a thought, a
poem, a story helped to accentuate the mood of my music. As a concert host,
I expanded my use of the written word to complement the music of others.
One concert, two; one year, two years, five years, ten—the collection grew.
Themes emerged. A book was born: My Old Gray Coat. I hope it fits.
MY
OLD GRAY COAT
Table of Contents
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Perhaps They Heard |
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Something About Freedom |
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Perhaps They Heard |
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Blue Ridge Blue & Gray |
| Banjo
Betsy |
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Slaughter at Shelton Laurel |
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My Old Gray Coat |
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I’m Coming Home |
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Eternal Moments |
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Mother Ireland |
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St. Patrick |
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St. Patrick’s Celebration |
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Eternal Moments |
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A Fountain of Blessing |
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A Place Safe and Warm |
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Greensleeves |
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A Full Moon on Freshly Fallen Snow |
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Peaceful Reminders |
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Christmas Candy |
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I Am a Pilgrim |
| Suwannee
River Snakes |
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Moving to the Mountains |
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Grandfather Mountain |
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The Price of Travel |
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School Days |
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Elementary
Wonder |
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The Inspiration of Lloyd |
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The Button |
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Teacher Days |
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A
Beginning Teacher |
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The First Day of School |
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Burnt Toast |
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Taking the Test |
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The Last Day of School |
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Short Tales |
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Just
Tolerable |
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Travelers’ Tech |
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I Am |
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Work
is Never Done |
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A Single Voice |
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Closer |
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Country Roads Less Traveled |
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Bill
Monroe |
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The Man in Black |
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The Gospel Ship |
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Something
About Freedom
I know something about freedom, but
there is much more I don’t know. I don’t know freedom as well as the Jews
who were liberated by the allies at Auschwitz, Dachau, and Treblinka. I
don’t know freedom as well as Rosa Parks, who stood against the social tide
by refusing to move to the back of the bus. I don’t know the desire for
freedom nearly as well as the unnamed young man who faced down a column of
Red Army tanks on their way to Tiananmen Square.
Perhaps
They Heard
A Memorial Day Salute
About ten years ago I was on my way
to Harrisburg, Pennsylvania to play for a wedding. Until I noticed the
monuments and tombstones, I didn’t realize that my route took me through the
heart of the Gettysburg Battlefield. It was dusk, late in the fall; the
trees were bare, the air cold and gray, and the park was empty. I had a
little extra time, so I decided to look around—to imagine the sights and
sounds and to feel the significance of this historic place.
Banjo
Betsy
Jacob,
a middle aged man, is wrestling with his conflicted feelings about the war.
The war is still young, but he has already experienced the horrors of
battle. The scene begins with Jacob playing “Home Sweet Home” on the
banjo. After he stops to share his thoughts, his banjo “sings” to keep him
company. “Banjo Betsy” is representative of Confederate mountaineers’
motivation to fight.
Betsy and I spend a lot of time
together. I like having my arms around her. I like to touch her skin and
run my fingers along her long, slender neck. And when she speaks, boy, it’s
music to my ears. To tell you the truth, old Betsy here’s the best banjo
I’ve ever had.
Slaughter
at Shelton Laurel
The
true story of “The Slaughter at Shelton Laurel” is told through a fictional
newspaper story. Although most mountaineers who fought in the Civil War
fought for the Confederacy, there was also a strong presence of Unionist
sympathizers. Shelton Laurel is in Madison County, North Carolina, about an
hour from Asheville.
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Asheville Spectator |
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February 18, 1863 |
There was a slaughter of Unionist
sympathizers in the Shelton Laurel community of Madison County. It was
mostly about grudges—and about salt. As readers know, salt keeps meat from
spoiling, and without salt, folks may be left without meat during the long,
hard months of winter.
My
Old Gray Coat
“My
Old Gray Coat” reflects the sentimentality of the era. If Jacob doesn’t
make it home, he wants to be remembered and he wants his wife to be taken
care of.
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December 8, 1864 |
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Webster County, Virginia |
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Dear Lorena, |
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The Shenandoah Valley is covered with snow, |
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covered with campfires,
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and covered with soldiers longing for home.
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Tomorrow the battle will be engaged, |
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but tonight I hold malice for none.
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Tonight ‘tis you I long to hold; |
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tomorrow I hold my gun. |
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I’m
Coming Home
“I’m
Coming Home,” alludes to the true story of Grant’s attempt to begin to heal
our nation’s divide by showing respect to Lee’s defeated army. Jacob was
seriously wounded in the leg near the end of the war. He is crippled.
Expecting humiliation by Grant’s Army, he is deeply moved by their respect.
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April 9th, 1965 |
| Webster County, Virginia |
Dear
Lorena,
I have some good news. I’m coming home. Me and some fellas from
over in Tennessee are headed home. I didn’t write sooner because I
couldn’t. A surgeon had me confined to a cot for over a month after cutting
some Yankee lead from my left leg. But my strength returns with each step
towards home.
| Mother
Ireland |
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Billowing
sails wave on a colorless creaking ship. |
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Belts loosened by hunger, cracks hunger’s painful
whip. |
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Taut and ashy flesh is squeezed tightly to the bone.
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Wide and weathered eyes gaze one more time toward home. |
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| St.
Patrick |
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March
17, 2006 |
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A citizen-child of Rome’s cracking empire, |
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who returned to his place of bondage, |
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to the lush green fields of Ireland, |
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where he had been slave and shepherd, |
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where he learned to suffer and to pray. |
St. Patrick’s Celebration
If I didn’t play Irish music and help to put on concerts, most likely, I
would give very little thought to St. Patrick’s Day. I don’t recall ever
intentionally wearing green when I was a kid, and I never got pinched. I do
recall thinking that derby hats were cool, that dancing leprechauns looked
funny, and that after St. Patrick’s Day it would soon be warm enough to go
swimming.
Eternal Moments
Thanksgiving is between Halloween
and Christmas. Christmas day is between presents and a Holy Presence. We
live our lives between birth and death. We snack between meals. We succeed
and fail between our fears and our aspirations. We travel between
destinations. Is every moment and every place just a pause between another
moment and another place?
A
Fountain of Blessing
Hands. I see my great-grandmother’s hands piecing together old cloth to
make a new quilt. She softly rocks in a dark, coal-fire lit room,
skillfully pushing and pulling and planning and piecing; bringing into one,
cloth of different shapes, colors, patterns, and textures.
| A
Place Safe and Warm |
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Her
door was always open |
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The hinges creaked with time |
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Her furniture, worn and ragged |
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She counted pennies and dimes |
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In a place that was safe and warm |
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| Greensleeves |
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Thou
harvest queen and queen of innocence, |
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Oh, Greensleeves, Why do you not respond? |
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I love you deeply. |
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You smile so sweetly. |
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I offer you kerchiefs for your lovely head |
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And a smock that’s gold and crimson red. |
A
Full Moon on Freshly Fallen Snow
A
wide soft blue light gently rises up from nature’s snowy blanket and melts
into the darkness of a star-filled sky.
| Peaceful
Reminders |
| The bells are peaceful
reminders. |
| The church is
still there, and people still care. |
| It’s time to
start school, or its simply time. |
Christmas
Candy
I have never been to Cleveland, but
I used to love the Cleveland Browns. They had a good football team and good
players. They had Jim Brown to run the ball and Lou Groza to kick it. And
they wore beautiful brown and orange uniforms that looked good in the mud
and snow.
Suwannee
River Snakes
Unlike Stephen Foster, I’ve been to
the Suwannee River, I’ve been on the Suwannee River and I’ve been in the
Suwannee River. Mossy oak trees line the banks as the snaking dark tonic
water runs from the Okefenokee Swamp, through South Georgia and the
panhandle of Florida and into the Gulf of Mexico.
Moving
to the Mountains
I remember a time when I thought I
might be the only one who noticed the beauty of the fall leaves. I thought
about telling others, but then I decided to keep it to myself.
| Grandfather
Mountain |
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An
old man sleeps eternally alone |
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Resting peacefully on his bed of stone |
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The trees are his beard, and the wind is his comb |
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I see Grandfather Mountain |
The
Price of Travel
It’s expensive to travel these days,
so why not just stay at home? I know I’m staying home more. I used to
have to run all over town to do this and that: to go to the bank, to deliver
articles to the paper, to go to the library, to go to a concert, to visit
with friends. And now there’s little need to waste this time and expense.
I can do it all on the Internet.
Elementary
Wonder
In the second grade, I remember the
Halloween Carnival at Bayview Elementary School. I remember the crowds,
candy apples, and cotton candy. I remember a lot of adults wore big round
buttons with a picture of a baldheaded man. The buttons said, “I like
Ike.” I didn’t know who Ike was, but I remember I liked the “I like Ike”
buttons and I wanted one. But I didn’t get one
The
Inspiration of Lloyd
Lloyd Rhodes was somebody everybody
in the 5 th grade looked up to—and feared. He always wore tight blue jeans,
a wide black leather belt, and a dirty white T-shirt. And he had a loud
motorcycle at home. I heard it one time when I was delivering papers. It
was loud and scary, just like Lloyd. I never saw him in a fight. I didn’t
need to. Everybody feared and respected Lloyd.
The
Button
The thin metal strips had been
wrapped around his teeth and implanted in his gums. Today, wires would be
added, tightened and strung. As he was waiting for his name to be called,
the music of the Drifters took him to a sunset on the beach, where a gentle
breeze was blowing, where small waves were lapping on the shore, and where
he was walking barefoot with his girlfriend under the boardwalk, just having
some fun (sing) under the boardwalk, boardwalk.
| A
Beginning Teacher |
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Will
I fit in? |
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Will the children like me? |
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What if they don’t listen, don’t behave
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And don’t do their work? |
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Well, they should. |
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I know Bloom’s Taxonomy. |
The
First Day of School
Mr. Murphy arrived at Mountainhome Middle School feeling slightly out of
place. For twelve years his classroom had been many different classrooms
all over North Carolina, wherein he had visited and taught and departed; his
classroom had been teacher conferences and banquets and seminars; his
classroom had been the highway and the hotels and movie screens; his
classroom had been full of long, quiet spaces wherein he pondered problems
of the world and the possibility of his return to full-time teaching.
Burnt
Toast
Some of my colleagues complained
about the smell of burnt toast in the teachers’ lounge. This was soon after
I decided that I’d eat my breakfast at school rather than at home. I am
usually the first one in the building, so, along with my morning coffee and
scan of the news on the Internet, I decided to enjoy a warm, crisp piece of
jelly covered, wholegrain bread.
Taking
the Test
Students, give me your
attention...I’m waiting. Good. Notice your name and school number have been
pre-marked on your answer sheet form. There are two number two pencils
positioned in your pencil pouch and pointed to the left. Please raise your
hand if you need pencils and the proctor will provide them for you.
The
Last Day of School
I pay attention to the news. This
week Iraq got an interim government, the president visited with the Pope, an
angry man drove a bulldozer through Granby, Colorado, the economy and gas
prices swung up, severe weather swept the nation, and, what had the greatest
affect on me, this week, yesterday, was the last day of school for this
school year.
Just
Tolerable
As far as we know, Grandpa was a
potato famine refugee and the first American branch on the Shannon family
tree. Soon after he arrived, he caught the gold rush fever and headed
toward the western mountains of opportunity. How or exactly when he found
his fortune isn’t known, but somewhere near Carson City, Nevada the luck of
this Irishman turned into a pot of gold.
Travelers’
Tech
Traveler:
I was traveling this Thanksgiving, like I am on most Thanksgivings. My
mother and my home place are in Orange Park, Florida, just outside of
Jacksonville. This year, every year, that is my Thanksgiving destination.
Since gas is still high and advanced airline tickets are relatively low, I
flew home this year
Work
is Never Done
Work
is a place to have my name on a mailbox or a door or a seat or chair or
place in line; my place to tighten the bolt, steer the wheel, answer the
phone, change a tire, hoist a sail, file the mail, or surf the web; my place
to sell products and skill, wisdom and worthiness; my place to sell or to
share with others.
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A Single Voice |
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When
ministers speak of God, |
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When shamans speak of Vision, |
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When poets speak of Truth, |
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When lovers speak of Love, |
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If I hear a single voice, |
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I hear them all the same. |
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| Closer |
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I
am sometimes jealous. |
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I sometimes hate. |
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I am sometimes resentful. |
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Sometimes it feels good to carry a grudge. |
Bill Monroe
Bill Monroe is widely referred to as
the Father of Bluegrass. Some may wonder what he did to achieve this
recognition. Some may not distinguish bluegrass from country or folk music
and therefore wonder: What is bluegrass? Others may question why any of
this matters. I will very briefly try to answer these questions.
The
Man in Black
From 1969 to 1971 I religiously watched the Johnny Cash Show on ABC. After
the opening announcements, he would turn and announce, “Hello, I’m Johnny
Cash.” I listened to the man in black.
The
Old Gospel Ship
Puberty hit at about the same time that Elvis and Pat Boone were vying for
our nation’s soul. I was encouraged to avoid Elvis and to emulate Pat
Boone, which is why I wore white buck shoes and secretly listened to “All
Shook Up.” I liked Pat Boone and Elvis. By the age of twelve, I had lost
my innocence.
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